..even fucking real anymore? Is how I feel even real? I thought I liked this girl, she's awesome, but I'm constantly trying to get her to notice me. Why do I have to try so hard when everyone around me can just snap their fingers and have five girls there ready to hand out their virginity to the asshole. I'm the fucking nice guy! Why do I try so hard? Do I even fucking care, or am I just trying to find something else to fill my time? Why does it even fucking matter? Why do I fucking care? Who knows, or gives a shit.
I look for guidance. I play World of Warcraft to fill my time. I go and play Ultimate and wish I could get drunk out there with them. I just do that shit at home, get drunk and fuck up from the comfort of my home. What's my problem anyways? Is it caring to much, or not enough? I wish I knew, I wish someone else knew. Fucking tell me what's wrong with me so I can have a good time like everyone else. I'm just venting anger now. Trying to find purpose like every other person out here. I found that I hate religion more than anything. Every time it comes up, I get angry and I hate that person. FUCK RELIGION. Just another way to hide behind things better left untouched and unspoken. Fuck you and fuck your beliefs. Go home, and find something real to hold onto and leave my sorry ass alone.
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